I’m struggling today…I had to make phone calls to dementia care and social services. Very tough.

You see in my head my mum is still the bright, bubbly, outspoken woman who embarrassed me greatly by dragging me out of a nightclub in her nightie….I was 16 and thought I could do what I wanted. She knew otherwise.

Today it has hit me that she will never be that woman again. Slowly but surely my mum will become a stranger to herself and us strangers to her.

However my mum is a fighter, she is strong, fierce and stubborn. This will not be a overnight thing, I know for a fact she will want it on her terms. I also know that she will want me to stay the woman she raised…a fighter, strong, fierce and stubborn. So for her, I’ve slept it out and I’m now ready for the next set of challenges or whatever life throws at me.

Mum, I won’t let you down. We’ll get through this like the strong Queens we are!

Until next time…xx